Martha

Goals are hard to have. They make me hard on myself and upset when I don’t accomplish everything I want to. I am a very “check-list” type of person. I love my to-do lists, organized by when to do and when due. I strive to check as many things off as possible, thinking “when this is done, I will be at peace”. The thing is, I always have things to add to my list. And when I don’t have things to put on my lists, I feel aimless and restless. My lists give me purpose. I constantly need something to be doing, to be striving towards or working on or I feel empty. How sad is that? An empty life without a to-do list. It shouldn’t be that way. I am loved and saved by a big, all-powerful God. How little my to-do lists look at his feet. I am constantly convicted by the story of Mary and Martha. Jesus came to visit, and while Mary sat at his to feet to listen, Martha bustled around, cleaning up and preparing a meal for Jesus. Martha became frustrated with Mary for not helping, but Jesus reprimanded Martha, saying that Mary had chosen the one thing that was truly important.

So while I know that I will always be a list person, pushing myself as hard as possible, I am seeking to take refuge in my Fathers arms. It is okay to have nothing to do sometimes to do nothing sometimes. It is okay to take a break and rest. I am not defined by my failure to achieve the high unrealistic standards that I set for myself.

No matter the things I accomplish in life, or DON’T accomplish, my worth is defined in the king who died for me.